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Chandra Nalaar ([personal profile] fieryimpulse) wrote2020-05-31 09:22 pm

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[personal profile] hallucinogem 2019-11-28 02:56 am (UTC)(link)
okay well
good to know
i don't think you'll need to show me how to do that anytime soon but
yeah

wow

the fog?
hallucinogem: (too hard to find)

[personal profile] hallucinogem 2019-11-28 03:04 am (UTC)(link)
why are you apologizing?
i don't care if you have sex with anyone.
it's fine.
you can make your own choices.
hallucinogem: (i'm after rebellion)

[personal profile] hallucinogem 2019-11-28 07:29 am (UTC)(link)
i've been having more than enough weird feelings lately
turning into whatever the hell that thing was
watching my teeth stop fitting right on my face
getting drunk and almost making out with Lancer
what's a few more?
hallucinogem: (opened up my veins too many times)

[personal profile] hallucinogem 2019-11-28 07:56 am (UTC)(link)
it's okay, Chandra, i promise
i told Lancer this last month but it's kind of. 15 years too late for me to worry about feeling uncomfortable.
you don't need to be that worried about me.
hallucinogem: (is it any wonder that my mind's on fire)

[personal profile] hallucinogem 2019-11-28 07:49 pm (UTC)(link)
i know
i know you keep saying it
it's just not easy

maybe i'll get so drunk one day that i don't care about spilling my life story out to you or something
like you don't have a better idea of it than anyone else here already
hallucinogem: (it's a flaming wonder telepath)

[personal profile] hallucinogem 2019-11-29 03:37 am (UTC)(link)
gods
you really want to hear all of that?

i guess you don't know what you're in for.
yeah, we'll see if i can drown my inhibitions like that, i guess.
hallucinogem: (i'll settle for lies)

[personal profile] hallucinogem 2019-11-29 08:25 am (UTC)(link)
if i come over, i'm probably not heading back here tonight
i don't think Entrapta would appreciate it if i came back that drunk
if i can even walk after however much it takes

just i guess as a heads up that i would have to stay over
i'm sure you hate the idea as much as i do
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hallucinogem: (it's a flaming wonder telepath)

[personal profile] hallucinogem 2019-11-30 02:11 am (UTC)(link)
i know. absolutely torn to pieces.
i'm on my way.


[she'll never get used to Chandra's home, but she's spent enough time chasing punks away from it that she knows how to get there by heart. maybe it's the Bond, or maybe she just learned that it's a safe place to go if she ever needs to, but it's probably just the Bond. involuntary information beamed into her brain by magic and definitely not anything else. she knocks on the door but doubts she'll have to wait very long.]

It's me. Ready to do this, I guess.
hallucinogem: (i'm after rebellion)

[personal profile] hallucinogem 2019-11-30 09:16 am (UTC)(link)
[it's not bad. it's not Emerald, which is why she doesn't come by often, but it's hard to deny that it's upscale as hell and better than Em herself probably deserves.]

You get cold? I thought that was something you didn't have to deal with. [it takes her until about mid-sentence to realize it's for her own benefit, and since the best thing she has by way of a coat is that brown sports jacket that she hasn't started wearing yet over the green mock turtleneck she has on, she nestles herself down close to the fire.]

So. You really just want me to get drunk and talk about my life. That's really the plan here.
hallucinogem: (it's a flaming wonder telepath)

[personal profile] hallucinogem 2019-12-01 01:11 am (UTC)(link)
Guess it was lucky I texted you when I did.

[there's... so much of what's going on is for Emerald's benefit; she's not dumb and she knows that coincidences don't usually work in her favor. but Chandra isn't calling attention to it. she doesn't need Emerald to know that it's for her. that's different. in a good way, she thinks; there's feelings of warmth and safety coming through, slowly but surely.]

I only really do social drinking anyway. It's not really a good idea for me to drink alone. [because of a few things. but there was definitely a reason the only two people here who had or would see her really drunk were the people she trusted the most out of the ones she'd met so far.] And this is about as social as I'm gonna get, I guess. Hope you're ready for some bleak shit.
hallucinogem: (imprisoned by the thought)

[personal profile] hallucinogem 2019-12-01 11:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[probably for the best. Emerald bites back the comment about how she already had nightmares and takes her glass, carefully raising it to her lips. taking a slow draw without waiting for any kind of toast or anything like that, she swallows and speaks. and she wants it to be more dramatic, but she's not there yet.]

I owe everything I am today to Cinder. And I know I told you that already, but... [her face twists, not at the wine but at what she's saying. how the words are still too hard to come by. and she exhales.]

Sorry. I don't think I can start yet. It's... too much and I'm thinking about it too much. We should talk about something else first.
hallucinogem: (is it any wonder that my mind's on fire)

[personal profile] hallucinogem 2019-12-03 04:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah?

[her free hand goes up to her mouth and feels her teeth through her lips. it still feels unnatural to her touch, but it hasn't really gotten in the way of much yet, mercifully.]

It feels like they don't fit right in my mouth. Which, I mean, they don't, but... I don't know. It's weird having to feel it in reality instead of just as a dream. [she punctuates that with another drink from her cup. she'll need to do that more and faster if she actually wants to get to the stuff she needs to talk about.]

Back home I can make people think my body looks like whatever I want it to. Now it's totally out of my control. That's weird, too. [she's eloquent.] I don't like it.

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