[she inhales, trying to get a handle on herself. trying to get a handle on herself that's as tight as the one Chandra has on her. it's not working, but she can try. she has to try.]

I'm sorry. I know we're going in circles. I just—

[it's. she stops herself from talking again. she doesn't have to explain herself, does she? wait, does she? shit. no. she doesn't. Chandra knows. of course Chandra already knows.]

Even if you're right, I don't... want to think about it right now. And I know I just said that too but... [she sniffles and buries her head closer.] Gods.